New Computer!

So I just got a new computer. This time, I decided to get a Macbook instead of the usual PC. I made this decision for several reasons, but that’s not important right now.

I knew there would be things I’d have to learn with the mac, and so far I’m doing pretty good learning without googling too much. But there really is a big learning curve to get over with the switch.

The naming of things is really throwing me off a bit, but I assume over time I’ll learn that “the finder” is really just “my computer” and I don’t download programs, I buy applications through the app store and download “disk images” (like firefox for example) so they can be read and figuratively ejected from the imaginary disk drive. Thanks mac, for thoroughly confusing me for the whole two days I’ve had this macbook air (I swear it’s so thin, I feel like it’s going to cut me one day O_O).

One thing I really do love though, is the mouse pad. It’s awesome. nuff said.

Precious Scarlet – Part 2

Read Part 1 – if you haven’t already

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My mother’s voice fades as I enter my room and lock the door. Why did she have to mention Sam?! He was the one part of my life I wish I could undo, yet he was the one part of my life that felt genuine and… right. He held the biggest piece of my heart, and destroyed it so easily… it’s almost laughable, if it weren’t still fresh in my mind.

“What?” I can’t believe what I’m hearing.

The man in front of me, sighs and stares emotionlessly through my soul. “Let’s end this.”

“…No” I can’t bring myself to say anything more than that. My fiancé is not pleased with that response. His blank stare, which used to be so full of life and happiness is now replaced with frustration. When did he become like this. He sighs again, but I cut him off before he can break my heart further. “Why… Why are you saying this?”

I’m not even sure I want to know. But he doesn’t answer, he doesn’t even apologize. “You can keep the ring.” I’m lost for a second, as he wastes no time paying the bill for food we didn’t eat. He’s ready to leave, without even giving me a reason why he’s breaking up with me.

“Sam!” He turns after reaching the clear glass door.

“Goodbye Scar, I wish I could explain it to you…”

“Then explain!” I hopped from the chair, taking long strides to meet him. “Explain so I can understand, we can work through whatever it is!”

He sighs again but doesn’t answer. Finally, after the longest minute of my life, he traces the line of my jaw and gives a small frown, “I’m sorry, Scar.”

I sigh and fall face first on my bed. This is not how I imagined my day going.

In need of a distraction, I call up my best friend Nyssa. She answers almost immediately. I knew we were best friends for a reason. “So how was it?” I don’t even get to get to say hello first and she already knows.

“Ugh, don’t even get me started on the world’s most boring bachelor.”

She laughs, “Was it that bad?”

“It was worse.” I hold back a dull groan, “I don’t even remember what he was talking about, so I left.”

She laughs hysterically, “You just left him, poor guy.”

“Poor me, just blah, blah, blah for TWO hours!”

“Geez, girl, I’m surprised you even stayed that long.”

“Weren’t you just saying you felt bad for him?” I ask with a chuckle.

“Yea, before you said two hours.” I can almost see her rolling her eyes. “So what’d your mom think about it?”

“Ugh! Don’t even go there.” Now I’m rolling my eyes. My mom never knows when to quit. “She blew her top on this one. Says she has another one planned for tomorrow.”

“Seriously?! Where does she find all these guys?”

I shrug even though she can’t see me.

“So who is it this time?” She asks, almost as if she knew I shrugged.

“Don’t know, don’t care.” I’m not gracing another one of my mom’s choices with my presence again. But, knowing my mother, she won’t give in easily. “If I do end up going though, I’m going to need an escape.”

She laughs, like she was expecting me to say that. “No worries, I got you.”

Of course, “I knew we were best friends for a reason!”

By the time we get off the phone, it’s almost 2am and I’m dreading tomorrow. Knowing my mother, she’ll have some way to trap me into going to the date; I just have to be ready to one up whatever she’s planned.

Shouldn’t be too hard, right?

Give Love

When I think of my mother, many things immediately come to mind. Her nagging, her overprotective tendencies, her words of wisdom, her love. Though me and my mother don’t always agree with each other, we will always love and cherish one another. A mother’s ability to give love consistently and passionately, is beyond any I have ever seen.

Today, I don’t want to argue with my mom, I want to thank her for the years of locking me in the house so I don’t cause trouble. I want to appreciate her always driving me to school even when I tried to feign sickness (she’s a nurse, she knows when I’m faking it Ha-ha!). Most of all, I want to give her more love than she gave me, but that would take my entire lifetime – which I am more than willing to give. Though I may complain and groan, she will always be there when I fall. She will be always be with me, even if it’s not physically. And for that, I will always be grateful – more than all the words in the world can describe.

Thank you mommy, for always giving me love, even when I may not deserve it.

Happy Mother’s Day!